hiya!

I find it rather sad that I seem to only be capable of blogging once a month. Life with an almost two-year-old is all consuming, and if I ever have a moment to myself, I find I collapse and fall into an immediate slumber. I would like to promise to do better. I’ll not.

The following will just be some randomness from this past month. My brain is a big ol’ pile of mush, and my word retrieval is _______(I can’t think of the word).

A few minutes ago, Gracen tried to feed Avery a plantain chip through my belly button. She’s showing some wonderful big sister qualities these days. Please refer to our Picasa photo site for April to see her in action with lil’ cuz Zachary. Also, I have recently learned that I can upload my videos directly to Picasa, so I’m going to give up on my YouTube video site. Simplify.

Gracen has become rather obsessed with the joy of water these days. It began with Walker and her playing with soapy water on the patio and has somehow morphed into bathroom and kitchen sink bubble baths for her toys. Everyday. Froggy got a bath today in the bathroom sink while I was busy changing sheets (sidenote: it is not easy to change sheets 8 ½ months pregnant). It turned into 45 minutes of severe crying and depression as he hung over the tub to dry. I even brought out Froggy #2 (he had been recently washed but more recently peed upon and was in the launder lineup again) as an attempt to calm her spirits, but he was too bright, too green, too smelly of pee. Actually, the funky smell is probably the only thing she found comforting about him.

On another Froggy note, we have been very careful not to have both Froggies accessible at the same time. A few weeks ago, however, she discovered #1 in the laundry as she was holding #2. We really thought this would be catastrophic and that her little universe of toddler reality and order would just collapse around her. Not the case. She fell into the floor laughing and has since demanded that both Froggies accompany us everywhere we go. I’ve been trying to break the cycle of Double Dodgy (G-word for Froggy) over the past few days, which is perhaps why today’s event was so “emotional.”

(It is now “tomorrow” and I still haven’t finished this damn post.)

I’m just going to quit writing and leave you with some pictures. Perhaps my eloquence will return tomorrow…

In training...

We spent some time in Asheville recently. It was wonderful, as always. Gracen loved being with her Ghi-ghi and Pops (G-word: Pots). And we got to see our favorite Colorado family!!

Hello handsome...

I can NEVER get them to look at the camera!! Too, too busy to be bothered with such trivial things as documenting their toddlerhood...

We received a letter from our niece Katelyn. Her 2nd grade class had been reading Flat Stanley, and she sent us a Flat Katelyn to have an adventure. Gracen wanted to take her boating (I refused), took her for a drive (in park), and then had to bandage her up (she ripped in two). We love you Katie Lady!!

Baby Avery

locked up.

Hi. I missed you. It's late, and I'm sleepy, so this will be brief.

This has been a fast and interesting month. Gracen is talking nonstop these days in words that we tend to understand. She's starting to put words into sentences, which is so cute. Our most common sentences today were "Dada working" or "Go Walker's house" or "More George please" or "Ghi-ghi bye-bye house." It really is cuteness overload. With Gracen's only-child time quickly coming to a close, I'm trying to soak up as much as possible and not wish this time away in pining for Avery's arrival. She's sleeping well again through the night, and I've started taking daily naps with her. This began as an attempt to get her to stay in her bed rather than playing during nap time, but has turned into a luxurious highlight of my day. I'm getting absolutely nothing accomplished, but I seem to be okay with it. Life now is simple, rested and good.

Pics for AnnieBelle...

Gracen is enjoying her first milkshake. I think she likes it when Mama has cravings.

Somebody was very excited to be eating pasta for dinner (and lunch and then dinner again). It was spaghetti with meat(soy)balls. She seems to think balls are meant for throwing. I guess they are.

This is the very early stage of baby Avery's room. It is now filled with much more stuff that has been moved out from storage. I think we're ready!

This is Gracen's very lived in big girl room. She loves it. She locked herself into this room during nap time today. And it should be noted that I do not handle panic situations with any amount of grace whatsoever. She was on the opposite side saying, "Mama door. No sleepy," and I was on the other side crying hysterically. I finally got it together after a few minutes and called Amy, my neighbor and hero. She calmly pointed out that I could stick something long and pointy in there, and it should open up. It did.

So this bad boy is my latest big purchase: Tike Tech ATX All Terrain Double Stroller. I have been researching double jogging strollers for a while now (I blame this on you Sunday). I really wanted the BOB double, but was unwilling to drop the money on it. This one is comparable to the BOB line, but is much more affordable, according to the hundreds of reviews I've sifted through. And baby A can go in it at six weeks of age without the need for a car seat attachment. And because it came with a slight and fixable defect, they're sending me a free infant seat insert. Yippy for flawed Velcro!!

Perhaps you're wondering why I made such a purchase. Adam was wondering as well, especially since I didn't tell him about the investment until some days later. I seem to have gotten it in my head that I'll be running the Kiawah Island half Marathon next December. For those of you who know me well, go ahead and get your giggles out. I'm not a runner. Athletic, maybe, but certainly not a runner. I don't like running. I may have run four miles at some point in my life over a decade ago. Somehow, I seem to think my post-prego unrunnable self will be able to get it in gear for 13.1 miles by December 6th. Adam's going to run it as well. He, on the other hand, is a runner and actually enjoys it. I think maybe pregnancy hormones are making me insane.

sigh...

First of all, Adam and I would like to congratulate Gracen on her new skill of removing herself from the crib without any assistance whatsoever. You are indeed a very talented little person.

Fortunately, she discovered this ability during naptime the same day that we were planning on transitioning into her big girl bed for night sleep. I guess she overheard us talking and just wanted to get a head start. That's our little overachiever. She has been insisting that I lie down with her first in bed, which I do not mind at all. She pats the bed beside her and says, "Mama, bed." Refusal just isn't even an option, and she's just so cuddly. She does have to sleep with her entourage: Froggy (of course), X-Mas Curious George, Monkey (yes, that's his name), lil' Froggy (with attached pacifier that confuses her), Ali G (her new alligator from the Everglades), and Psycho T (teddy bear wearing UNC's Hansorough's jersey). Entourage must also go downstairs for breakfast in the morning.

So far she's loving her new room. We are having a bit of an issue with her getting up from nap and playing with all of her toys, and I literally mean ALL of her toys. She's pulls everything down from the shelf before starting to play. Usually by that point, I've come in to tell her to go back to bed, which she does until I close the door. We've been working on our current nap for an hour and fifteen minutes. She's still playing, though she's at least moved her toys to her bed. Perhaps this is a step. In the crib days, we would just lie her down, and she was asleep in about two minutes, so this may take some time.

Avery's room is starting to take form. I broke into the stored 0-3 month clothing last night, and the excitement is growing. I have been much calmer this time around in waiting for birth to come, though Adam may choose to disagree. Nesting is kicking in, and I can't seem to get anything completed quickly enough. Yesterday, I kicked Adam out of his dresser (without him knowing) and carried it up the stairs (by myself) to put in Avery's room. For some reason, Adam thought I should have waited for his brute strength to take on such a task. He doesn't really get the whole nesting urgency perspective. I'll post pics of both girls rooms once I get them a little closer to completion.

So, the babymoon...

I think I've waited so long to blog because it has been tough transitioning to reality. Islamorada

is beautiful. We stayed at the Cheeca Lodge and Spa, which was much fancier than I had expected. The boy went all out. The weather was warm all week, though it rained a couple of days. Even the rainy weather was great, as we spent the days in our lovely apartment or in the tiki bar just lounging and reading. We accomplished very little, and it was perfect. We played golf, very poorly I might add, and took a kayak out to some far off keys. We had planned numerous other activites, like snorkling and swimming with dolphins, but we opted for hours of uninterrupted relaxation. I also had a Mother Earth prenatal massage, and I came real close to dragging that little lady back home with me in the suitcase.

Gracen did well in our absence, and didn't really seem to miss us. My mom came for the first part of the week, and she came down with some flu-type of bug. Fortunately, Gracen had been dosed up on some Astragalus and Echinacea all week and was able to get by with a slightly runny nose. Yay for herbs (and Amy who tells us all about them)!! Adam's mom came to save the day, taking care of Gracen and Ghi-ghi. Gracen loves her grandmothers, and we are so grateful both of you took the time to give us this opportunity to travel. It was so good to have a chance to reconnect and remember just how much we love each other.

There are more pictures on our Picasa photo site.

Poison Control

1-800-222-1222

This is a good number to have handy in case your child ever eats a half a container of extra strength Tums.

I had serious heartburn issues when I was pregnant with Gracen. I kept containers of Tums in my car, by the bed, in my office, and when I went to teach classroom guidance, a student was in charge of keeping them safe and making sure I didn't forget them behind. When my students would see me in the hall without them, 1st graders especially, I would quickly be reminded to turn around and go get them. For someone who had never had heartburn, it was shocking that my body could turn on me so dreadfully. It didn't help that my feet were swelling far beyond the confines of my flip flops at that point. Avery seems to be attacking my digestive system like her big sis, and I've had to turn back to my good friends, Tums.

A couple of weeks ago, Gracen snagged one in my car. They taste like candy, as I get the tropical fruity variety. I didn't worry about it too much, but it did slightly alter her "output" for a day or so. The other morning, I was busy putting on a load of laundry and ignoring my child who had travelled upstairs on her own. I heard what sounded to be her playing with her Curious George wooden tool set at the top of the stairs, so I continued with my negligence. A good 3-5 minutes later, I climbed upstairs myself only to be hit with a bottle of Tums. She throws the thing at you when she realizes she's not supposed to be playing with something. I suppose if she does it quickly enough, she assumes you will not have noticed the error of her ways. Anyway, I fished a couple of crumbled Tums out of her mouth and was bitten several times. The bottle, which had been in our home for less than 36 hours was now half full. I know I eat a lot of them, but I'm pretty sure I didn't take down half a bottle.

So I called Poison Control (I'm happy to report we made it 21 months without having to use this number before). Apparently, no harm shall come to her as long as I quit allowing for opportunites such as these to arise. If it's a "continued exposure" it could affect her calcium levels, which could be bad. I'm sorry sweet girl. No more Tums for us. I'm graduating to Zantac.

Intresting poo report from excessive Tums exposure:

1. It makes them come out WHITE. Or maybe a dull light gray, but shocking nonetheless.

2. It makes a child poop in the tub for the first time in her life. I won't expand on this one, but just know that it wasn't pretty.

Gracen ended up in bed with me about 5 AM, since her daddy was out of town and she'd been awake since 2:45 laughing and talking. I woke up this morning to Gracen pulling my eyelids open saying, "Mama, up, up. Mama nudge ooo (love you). Mama, miss oooo. Mama, up, up. Bye-bye." It hurts my heart to love this kid so damn much.

Also, I will be out of touch for the next week. Adam is taking me on a BABYMOON!!! We're heading to the Florida Keys on Sunday and returning Friday. Grandmothers will be taking over parental duties for the week. I can't believe we're going to be away from her for so long, but we figure this is the last time for some years that we'll be able to get away with just the two of us. We'll miss you!

Baby Hog

Gracen is practicing for her upcoming role as a big sister. So far, she's loving lil' cuz Zachary and doesn't seem to mind me loving on him either. I'm hoping this is a good sign for a transition to a bigger family unit this summer. We love this little man.
Aunt Belle and Uncle Sheppie spent the weekend in Chapel Hill. Annie wouldn't let anyone else hold baby Zach, including his mother, for two days. I begged and pleaded, but was denied.

Aww, the girlies together again (me, Hannah, Laura and Annie). It's so good to be surrounded by the people who know you best. Please come back over.

Gracen's favorite person in the universe seems to be her Uncle Sheppie, and she was very sad to see him leave. Aunt Belle would probably have been stricken with jealousy had she not been hogging Zachary the entire visit.

I apologize for the excessively cheesy post last Wednesday. I was indeed feeling overly emotional (hormonal) and overwhelmed with my auto-anthropomorphic break-up. (Cort--thank you. I forgot I loved that word so very much. Wordly Wise, eh?). Let me introduce you to my new friend, '96 Chevy Tahoe. She's big and old and solid and drinks a lot. But I think I love her. I do find myself feeling slightly guilty about the fuel efficiency; however, I drive very little. And I can haul A LOT of stuff in this girl, which is quite exciting. And if we ever get snow or ice, which hasn't happened in years, I'll have a 4 wheel drive to get me safely around town. So bring on the blizzards. We're ready.

So sad...

Dear Mattie,

I'm sorry I had to say goodbye today. You have been a true joy in my life. All 36,211 miles you have driven me have been nothing short of spectacular, and I thank you for always getting me to my destination safely and in such style. I believe you will love your new owner, as she has been admiring and loving you for months now. You will now be named Donna, however. Donna Matrix. Yes, you will get along splendidly.

Please forgive me for parting ways. I will see you again (every other week when I go to the specialty shop for dog food). Your new driver has even told me I can take you for some spins around the parking lot. My sweet first new car, I will miss your fuel efficiency, your smoothness, your quick reaction time, your pep, all of you. Thank you for taking care of my family and me these past years.

Keep on keepin' on...

Shanna

Insomnia

Isn't she precious?

Adam and our friend Scott moved some furniture for me yesterday so that I could get the rest of Gracen's Big Girl Room underway. So now she has her bed, her dresser from her old room, and a large shelf made by my father to store her toys. All we need is some artwork, and we'll be finished. The nesting urge is kicking in much harder than it ever did with Gracen. I have a ridiculous number of projects for me (or Adam) to complete, and nothing can get done quickly enough.

Since Gracen has been playing in her new room for weeks and she and I have been sharing her new bed on sleepless nights, we thought last night might be a good day to try out falling asleep in bed. Only after Adam lying down with her for a good 15 minutes followed by me lying down with her for another 30 minutes, she finally fell asleep. I was so proud, yet wanted to cry at her being old enough to be in a bed all by herself. It was short lived. She woke up at 1:00 AM, due to a leaky diaper, and stayed awake until at least 4:30, talking happily at times, crying inconsolably at others. We moved from crib to bed countless times, rocked, but she was determined to start her day. She woke again at 6:45.

I suppose I spoke too soon last week when I mentioned that we had overcome our sleep regression. I believe that was actually the last night we slept through. I think we're going to go back to the crib, and may have to take a harsher cry-out method. I'm not as comfortable with the cry-it-out approach as I was when she was younger, learning to fall asleep for the night. There's something a little sadder, sweeter, and needier about night waking that hurts my heart more harshly. I'm torn between the Healthy Sleep Habits, Happy Child and attachment parenting philosophies. Every mothering bone in my body screams for me to go to her in the night, which I'm certain just perpetuates this cycle of night waking and waiting for Mama to come and snuggle back to sleep. It really wouldn't be such an issue if our snuggle period was 10 minutes. And really, I'd settle for an hour at this point. The other big issue I'm having is that I seem to be completely incapable of falling back to sleep in any reasonable sort of time frame. Again, this wouldn't be that huge of a deal itself, if I was able to fall asleep gracefully at the beginning of the evening and could get the majority of my hours in then. As it stands, I'm sleeping around 4 hours a night, and those hours are interrupted by either Gracen talking/crying or Avery dancing on my bladder. I'm pathetically worthless right now.

It's 10:21, and I'm ready to put Gracen down for her nap. She's cranky and ready too. However, we have a rotten window that is presently being fixed, and there are loud noises outside. Also, this will take away from my opportunity for a nap as I need to be accessible for questions and payment. I'm bitter. And very, very sleepy.

I'm sorry for complaining. Minus the sleep deprivation, life really is wonderful.

Time Warp...

Thank you Tara for Gracie's new hat!! She loves it, perhaps a little too much. She can only eat whilst wearing her "At."

I feel like I posted a few days ago, but just realized it's been almost 2 weeks. I'm not sure what's going on in the space-time continuum these days, but my world seems to be a little off. Must be a wrinkle. I missed you.

Yeah. You see all those names there?! I don't mean to brag, but WOW, folks. Seriously, one of the best shows I've ever seen. It was all four of them, Emmylou Harris, Patty Griffin, Shawn Colvin and Buddy Miller, on stage the entire time, together. It was very laid back and casual. We felt like we were in their living room listening to good conversation in the midst of a jam session. I'm sorry all of you couldn't have been there with us. Thank you, dear husband, for giving Amy and I night out on the town. It made the baby girls very happy in there!



I think little girl Riggsbee may be partially named. Avery-no-middle-name-yet-Riggsbee. She's a very sweet girl, and is doing a fine job of making her Mama be aware of her presence. This is good, as meaniehead Daddy won't let me rent another fetal doppler to ease my irrational fears of the child disappearing. Nor will my midwife. It seems to increase my neurotic tendencies, so I'm told. I'm feeling great, though the belly is beginning to get in the way. I really shouldn't complain yet, as I'm well aware of how in the way it will eventually become. I wish I could just time warp from about mid-March to about Mid-May. For those of you spending any time with me from March to May in 2006, you might sympathize with this wish for me.

The G-Unit is perfect, happy, eating like a PIG (must be a growth spurt?) and sleeping again!!! I just discovered today a phrase called "18-month Sleep Regression." Yep. That's what we had. I'm really hoping it has gone away, though during this time of midnight playdates, I have discovered that Gracie's new big girl bed (that she only sleeps in with me), is the absolute most comfortable bed I've ever slept in in my life. I may be switching rooms again. By the end of next month, I'm hoping to have Gracen transitioned into her new bed. Right now, she just doesn't seem to be able to control herself from crawling out and playing with her toys in the darkness. Sadly, Adam took his headband off before I could get a picture of them reading together. Gracen likes to dress him up.

So Mr. Smartypants Daddy was just published in Science. For those nonscientisting people out there, if you were to discover the cure for cancer, your results would probably be published in Science. Click HERE for an article about their article. I'm trying to figure out how to attach a PDF of the document, if it's even possible. Fine work Adam, Doyle, et al. Way to be brilliant!!