(Above: Gracen putting a bowl of oatmeal on her head, saying "Hat, Mama, Hat!" It's okay to be in awe of her brilliance.)
We've spent the past month or so in heavy discussions over whether or not to deliver at the Women's Birth and Wellness Center again or to use the midwives at UNC Hospital. We decided that with our last delivery being so fast, messy and scary (full birth story in upcoming post), we owed it to ourselves and the little one to at least examine all of our options. We went to "Meet the Midwives" at the hospital last week. I went in with what I had hoped would be an open mind, but the fluorescent lighting immediately closed it. The facilities were fine, nice even for a hospital. The people were friendly, competent, and accommodating. But the entire time, I was a big breath away from breaking into tears. It just didn't feel like us. It didn't feel like it could bring us the experience I want for our birth to be. I know the risks involved in choosing an out of hospital birth. Well aware. But I believe in my body's ability to bring this girl into the world in an unmedicated and largely non-medical manner. Because of Gracie's birth experience, we will be putting extra safeguards in place. So dear family, fear not. It will be safe. We had a long discussion yesterday with the midwife who delivered Gracen, and she feels like we're still low-risk patients, and she is completely comfortable having us back again. We will expect the next delivery to be even faster than Gracen, so I'm just hoping to make it to the center in time. There will be no laboring at home.
(Please pardon the blurry spots in above photos. Gracen licked the camera lens again.)
Gracen and I have had a very dramatic/interesting day. It started off with a busted lip on a cedar chest, moved on to several diaper removals (by her, NOT me) with the last one being "fun-filled," and then to a full body marker painting of herself. All seem to speak to maternal negligence, apparently. I hope to do better tomorrow.
